i blush as my mind skips from one subject to another
my heart fluttering my stomach turning.
I can't figure out why i feel this way.
So excited yet sad as if though i was given the
best gift yet i can not accept.
i feel giddy yet depressed.
How can i lift these tidal wave of emotions.
everyone around me asks what's wrong.
How do i answer? such a tedious question.
One that leaves me breathless and cautious.
I'm perfect yet at the same time i feel as if everything is falling around me.
How do i let everyone know that though everything seems fine
i feel as if my mind is starting to twandle to nothingness.
Its not love its not hate. Its nothing to do with another.
no it has all to do with myself. and how i feel
a few friends i held dear abandonded me while a few who had at first seemed to dissappear reappear beside me.
So strange how this makes me smile yet at the same time
it depresses me so. How can such be?
How can i know someone for so long and they leave.
Life is fearful right now. My dreams falling asiwonder if ever the yelling will stop.
Yet now as i said my emotions are irristibal unreplacable.
How do i let the happy emotions free without breaking down.
how do i breakdown without feeling foolish...
then again is it just that i'm going insane? i wonder what would help ease the Flame of these emotions.